Wow! 50 Followers!

Thank you all who have followed me on this blog.

I never imagined when I started this earlier on this year that I would even get one follower reading my blog, let alone 50 of you. So thank you all very much for coming along the ride. I woke up this morning and came on here to try and catch up with some diary notes or other posts that are still sitting in my draft folder and then sore I had  50 followers, it has made my day it really has. It has quite distracted me from what I was going to do and why I am writing this thank you. I sincerely mean it whole heartedly and will always read and take on board your comments.

Thank you once again for making my Friday that little bit more special today. One love to you all xXx

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I love and agree with this totally, although I think that people who chose not to read are missing out on so much but we all have a choice, so this is great and had to share!
xXx

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“Reader’s Bill of Rights

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2. The right to skip pages

3. The right to not finish

4. The right to reread

5. The right to read anything

6. The right to escapism

7. The right to read anywhere

8. The right to browse

9. The right to read out loud

10. The right to not defend your tastes”
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11th April 2014 – A day visiting my Dad. – Three days in a row, yay me!

Dear diary, God, me and everybody else,

Hey there, today was a wonderful day although it got off to a very slow start because of my backache made it very difficulty for me to get up out of bed and when I finally made it out I was bent over like a little old person with a hunch back. Although having this pain has made me appreciate my Mum all the more as she has suffered with back problems due to a accident at work and it effected all our lives and yet despite her pain she looked after us and hardly ever complained. So I have done what she has always done and just got up and done the best I could through the pain and even though it still hurts and took more effort to do everything I have done my best to do it with a smile and I did quite a lot as you will read.

Did the normal Mummy job like getting the kids fed and dressed although of course my partner helped and their Nanny got up early with my eldest so I wasn’t misted while I was struggling to get up first thing. Then I did the washing up that was left from the night before and then made a pack lunch so we could have a picnic on route to my Dad’s. That’s the plan.

You know what happens with plans though don’t you? Someone always comes along to slow you down or get in your way. It was my Dad first thing on the phone trying to find out if we were going to visit and my reply was not if you keep me on the phone talking all morning we won’t. So he eventually got off the phone and then as I was making the sandwiches for our picnic when my sister and her youngest son came round. So then off course my son didn’t want to get ready to go to his Granddad’s he wanted to stay and play with his cousin. My sister assured me that they were not stopping long and then her other son came in as he got back from football practice. It was good to see them but their short visit wasn’t that short so I dragged my son away from them assuring him that would see them again in a day or so. Then we were off but it was gone one by that point.                Below my partner and my son on the way to the woods and my Dad’s.

                   

We were blessed with lovely weather and the blossom that only spring can give, so of course I took picture of that too. I wish I could have captured the truly magical way that the wind swept it down and it looked like snow falling in the spring.  We all love walking in the great outdoors and today was another walk down a familiar road but it was still a unique experience as always.

After the blossoms we carried on down the road  and this is what we sore as we walked past …

….and arrived at our picnic spot, which was half way and we were all very hungry as it was now going to be a late lunch.

Below are pictures of us having our picnic. Please bare in mind I was in pain and was not looking my best.

            

As you can see we had a wonderful time! It was a little chilly in the wind when the sun went in but it was lovely none the less. Our daughter was there as well in her pram with us but alas we didn’t get a picture of her eating. We had a kick about before we left this bit of the woods and then went off in search of hills to run up and down. The we got to my Dad’s and it took him awhile to come open the security door as he was also enjoying the lovely day in his garden. He wanted me to take photo’s for his before shots and as I had my camera I thought why not.

So here is a few of his garden:

Garden ornaments!

     

The garden and the kids

     

Not really the type of photo’s my Dad wanted but I like them, lol. The last two are what I would call arty shot’s. The third one was a happy accident thanks to a dirty lens but I think the rainbow makes it seem like something magical is going on that we don’t quite understand. The last one is the floor near the shed and it’s a mix of pink blossom and blue plastic shreds but I thought it looked so pretty there that I just thought it a waste not to take a picture and share it. So hope you enjoy that as well as all the other photo’s, of course.

We spent nearly the whole visit in my Dad’s garden and the kid’s were happy and Dad got some more planting done. So it was a lovely out doorsey visit and afternoon. We also made plans to go out to my Dad’s favourite pub to see a couple of bands play Saturday night, as it has been so long since we have been out with my Dad that we thought we should.

We left Dad’s before five so we could enjoy the walk back but our son was getting very tired so to distract him we went off to find the fairy tree but on our way we sore a squirrel that is why we were crouching down to watch it climb up the tree. Then we went over a couple of hills to reach the tree with roots above the ground that look like rooms. My son has a great imagination but he couldn’t imagine he could see them so I told him they were shy and staying invisible from him but because I have visited them since I was a little girl that I could see them waving at us. He soon cheered up and then I said what I always used to say when I go there, ” Hello fairies, how are you? I do believe in you!” Bless my son he repeat what I said nearly as soon as I said it and then I told him that because we said that two new fairies were born and they named one my son’s name and he was so chuffed and in awe. So we said “Blessed be, may you continue to be free!” and then my son said  “Goodbye.” and we went on our merry way.

   

We got back and my Mum had made us a wonderful meal for tea and we just chilled out while the children slowly started to calm down and get tired. My son listened to half a story and fell asleep. Mum went to bed a little while later and our daughter crashed out in daddies’ arms as usual now we are watching a little bit of telly and of course I’m writing this but as my laptop is running out of juice, this is it for today.

xXx

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

10th April 2014 – Two days in a row!

(Thought I would make this image appear bigger today, partly to make this post look different from yesterday’s and partly to let you see the image of me in the eye as I know it’s there but noticed you can’t really see in the previous size what was there. Now you can I hope you appreciate why I use this picture on my diary posts)

Dear diary, God, Me and every body else,

Well today has been a success all be it a painful and tiring day. We did manage to get out although it was dinner time when we left the comfort of my Mum’s little flat and headed to the city on our shopping trip around the streets of Norwich. On our shopping list we had:

Jeans for my partner

my son

and myself

pj’s for our daughter

going out shoe’s for my partner

t-shirts for my partner

knickers for me

a collection of books for me

(to help me finish series of books that I have started)

marker pegs for allotment

Not a very big list really but my partner just happens to be the fussiest person I have ever come across when it comes to clothes and especially shoe’s but I told him he won’t come away with us meaning the children and me if he doesn’t get some going out shoe’s to wear in the evening and some jeans without holes in.  I do not enjoy clothes shopping much myself although I am getting better at it in recent years but going with my partner is more of a pleasure but not when we are looking for items for him. Well I can’t lie I was not looking forward to it and as I feared it did not start well. We went in several shoe shops and I was determined not to go in clothes shops or indeed anywhere else until we had indeed found him some footwear. It was starting to look bleak and my backache was still persisting today.

There was a glimmer of hope in one shop but we looked on and then I started to get grumpy so we went to have something to eat – that always helps, lol. We had Chinese and the caramelised chicken did the trick I think. I decided while we were near a girlie clothes shop that we would have a look and I found and tried on two pairs of jeans. One pair my partner spotted but I wasn’t quite sure about as they were very girlie purple but denim and not really me but I did like them. ( I know it is a contradiction but I am infact one big contradiction.) They both fit although I nearly didn’t get the pair I picked out for myself as I realised when I went to try them on that they were more money than I usually care to pay. They did really feel and look good on and of course my partner gave me that look as if to say “your worth it, don’t doubt it/yourself”, so I agreed or yielded to his better judgement and we got them both. Then we went to the men’s dept. upstairs  and we nearly got a pair of jean’s for my partner. We were so close infact he even tried them on but alas they were not quite right. Nearly!

We went to get a few bargains out of pound shop like tennis ball’s for my Mum’s dog and that is where we also got the marker pegs for the allotment. They were ground floor pegs but we are going to use them to keep the fleece over our veg to keep the bugs extra off. So that was good, another couple of things off our list.

Not quite sure where we went next or what we got next but let me tell you we ended getting everything else on our list and of course like any shopping trip you always end up getting a few things that went on the list that you just couldn’t resist getting. Such as this t-shirt for myself, it was part of a buy 2 for such and such a price and my partner wanted one but not another so I couldn’t resist this one:

So we got my daughter and son their pj’s and jeans along with a batman vest for my son that I just adored and a Spiderman hooded towel that he can use after swimming on our holiday. We also managed to get ourselves a seconded hand dvd player, so we can finally watch films in our look room again. Then after getting all the clothes my partner then mention that he did quite like a pair of shoe’s he sore in the first shop we went in, so we went back and he tried them on and I knew by the look on his face he loved them. I told the gothic looking shop assistant who was very friendly that we would have them. Job done. They were a alligator look black pair and perfect for when we go out somewhere. I was really happy because now when we go out somewhere he won’t feel like a scruff bag in his all day work boots. He was really happy too and the price was very reasonable. So because we still had money left I went into the bookshop that just happens to be near the bus stops and then I had a dilemma as I lost  my piece of paper with the names of the books I wanted so had to try to do it by memory. Ok I did remember some of them but couldn’t get “His Dark Materials” by Philip Pullman unless I wanted all three books in one and the type was faint and too small for my liking and it would just make it hard to read. So I didn’t get it, gutted because I really want to know what’s going to happen next. I did however manage to get the last of the set  by Aprilynne Pike so that made up for it a little and I brought another Terry Pratchett to add to my collection. Maybe I will get a chance to go back on the way home once I find my list.

 

  

 We had a very good afternoon and the evening got better because the children went to bed reasonably early and as Mum was baby sitting her other grandchildren my partner and I had the living room to ourselves and got to enjoy the treat we got ourselves in peace.

We were not lucky enough to see it at the cinema so it was well awaited and of course we bothe loved it. Then off to bed and dispite my back still hurting and only paraceitimol and my usual tablets to help I did manage to read a few pages of my book before I fell asleep.

xXx

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

9th April 2014

Dear diary, God, me and every body else,

“Wednesday’s child is full of woe.”

Yes, this is how I am feeling today still can’t get over some annoying family news from yesterday and have got a terrible back ache that I have no idea how I got it but it is getting worse by the minute and even a long hot soak hasn’t really helped. So I’m here to have a bit of a moan to let it all out.

I have tried to keep positive despite my plans being changed due to my Mum’s plans changing. Although I am glad she had a forgotten afternoon out to the Theatre as she doesn’t go out all that much and she loved it. She went to see Cats, bless her. Silly woman completely forgot about going so our plans went out of the window when  she was reminded this morning. Matt and I were going to go into the city of Norwich to get some much needed clothes for our holiday after all it will do no good our children looking good when their parents look a mess. Alas that has had to be put off till tomorrow now but that’s life.

Were here in Norwich for the week to stay with my Mum as it is half term to see everyone and do our shopping before our family holiday in May and to get a long break from the allotment and my mother-in-law before the busy planting and weeding sessions in the weeks to come. We landed here on Friday and we haven’t been shopping unless you count food shopping or the local charity shop. Although I did get a pair of jeans and a hippy caftan top. That is a complete outfit for £3.00 bargain!

Ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My back hurts so much and I can’t get comfortable. I just want to be asleep but I couldn’t stay still in bed so am leaning on the side of the sofa with cushions behind my back to write this instead of reading my book because my back ache won’t let me, arrrhhhhhhhh!

This visit has been good so far the kid’s have loved seeing their Silly Nanny and their Auntie and cousins. We spent Saturday with them all up the local park and it was a lovely sunny day. We have also had a take-away and I went food shopping with my Mum and sister. Matt and I have had the chance to sit on the sofa in the evening and watch a film together, (something we don’t get the chance to do at Matt’s Mum’s.)as my Mum has medical issues and with us all here it tires her out faster. So it has been good but we haven’t done what we need to do while were here. Hopefully tomorrow we will get to the city but for now I just want this back ache to back off.

Sorry to be a moaning old bag but pain get’s to me after a while and it is really annoying to get pain every time you pick up or play with your child although I didn’t let it stop me when we went to the park this afternoon as we were blessed with sunshine again. So it is my fault partly because if I just rested it today it might not have been so bad now but it is hard not to do what your children want and ask of you if you can and my Mum has taught me well as she has suffered with a slipped disc that was inoperable for most of my life and she didn’t let that stop her taking us places and doing things. Ok it did obviously but she would do things she wasn’t meant to do and then suffer afterwards in silent to make our childhood as good or as normal as she could make it. So I am trying to follow here example but my pain threshold just isn’t as good because I’m MOANING, although technically not vocally and not in front of my children. So I guess that will have to do. Please forgive me the moan but it helped so thank you as always.

xXx

2nd April 2014

sorted Dear Diary, God, Me and Everybody else

As promised here I am to tell you of my news from the doctors. I have managed to get some peace and quiet early as my children are sleeping so am writing now so I can hopefully finish my current book and have a bath and get to bed early. (Here’s hoping.) So after my bike ride to the doctors and then having to wait as you always end up doing in every doctors surgery. I was then told that my bloods were fine and that my iron levels are back up to normal, so that is good. Wish they could have saved me the few miles of bike riding and just told me that on the phone yesterday. My cold is getting worse and I have quite a lot to do before I go away to Norwich Friday to see my family.

After I got back I reheated the Leek, Potato and Parsnip soup I made yesterday and we had that for dinner. Then I had to sort out all our clothes and the kids clothes and get them ready to take although am going to have to go through the ironing pile tomorrow. As I can’t find everything I want for the children but at least I sorted through them. So I achieved more than just going to the doctors  today.

However apart from this I think that will be it as my partner has gone to shot rats and my son has woken up when he should have gone to sleep. So he is sitting up with me now instead of sleeping. So not going to get much done as he wont let me leave him. He had a long day at playgroup bless him. My pen pall papers are downstairs so I can’t do that and I can only just reach the keys to type this. So it looks like I am either going to have to do some internet course work or read my book and get that early night after all.

Not a bad day but not a great one either. Please God just help this cold to leave me, I really don’t need it dragging me back down. Trying to keep positive and keep doing things. Getting better slowly and surely.

xXx

 

fantasy….

This is so true!

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Dear diary, God, Me and everybody else… 10th – 12th March 2014

Dear diary, God, Me and everybody else,

Hey, all am writing a catch up again a it has been a few days or so since I have written. The reason for this is yet again I forgot to order my medication on time, so had to lower my dose until I could collect my prescription so at least I was having a little every day this week but not enough. My own silly fault but it makes daily life even harder than normal. So I have been struggling this week and am only now starting to cope again because I am back on full meds tonight.

Monday 10th March

Today was filled with anxiety as I knew I had to be sitting by the phone at 3pm for my 2nd Well being call. I had done the feeling homework as best I could but was still worried that I would not be able to concentrate on the call but my sister in law decided to have a day with our son. She took him out in the morning to a park in a different local town and then took him home for lunch and then out shopping. Lucky boy. That meant I only had to look after our daughter while my partner went to feed the chickens but must have got roped into doing something else because he turned up five minutes before my appointment. This of course made me very stressed because I was worrying if he would be back in time and I didn’t think he would so I came up with a contingency plan ie putting a wayballos dvd on to keep my daughter occupied. It worked but my partner bless him – he cut it fine but got back just in time.

The phone call over ran apparently but we went over what I was asked to read and write about and it was depressing having to say how bad I really feel and how lasy my depression has made me in some ways but it also made me feel better for getting it off my chest so to speak and then deciding on a new direction to take the self help.  I am going to work on what I can do to improve the ordinary, mundane and pleasurable things in my life and write these in lists of difficulties and of course start with the easiest ones first and then reward myself with a pleasurable activity. Well that’s the theory. So I have two weeks to work these lists out. At least I feel like I’m working on sorting out my depression and focusing on turning it around so that is good but these conversations take it out of me. Just the stress of having too organise four other people to be out of the room so I can have a privet conversation to concentrate is hard enough let alone the emotional stress and pull of it all.

If I’m honest I can’t remember much else except the fact that I escaped that evening to have a bath as realised I couldn’t remember the last time I had one when the well being woman asked me. So she said it might be a good idea to make that the first thing I do. Lol. I have to laugh or I would cry.

xXx

Tuesday 11th March

Well today started well but it didn’t really end all that well. My partner and I decided that we needed to do various things in town ie: Stalham and as he had to got to the allotment to feed the chickens. We agreed he would meet me and the children there. So we could go to the library first and then do the pub for lunch and do the food shop. It all went to plan except I got more flustered so was obviously having a bad mood day. Our children seemed to have turned into the spawn of the devil or something because our daughter was trying to climb out of her pram and my son decided to act up in the library. Usually he is so good and always in there because he loves looking at all the books but today he was crazing for a wii ,three actually and he did what all parents dread. The public filling af a nappy and as far as I know they don’t have a toilet for the public in there and so we had to hurry up and swipe our books to return and get out then we had to pay for the wii game I gave in and had to pay to borrow. Then once outside I had to deal with the horrid business of changing a nappy in the open because there is nowhere that I know of in Stalham that you can change your baby without having to pay by buying something to do so. This did not help my mood.

We also dropped off some bags of stuff to a charity shop and then went in several others to look for stuff. I ended up getting some new books and some kitchen utensils. My son was very disappointed that he couldn’t find anything worth having bless him. We waited at the pub for well over half an hour for my partner and by this point I really needed to be relieved from being the soul carer of these two very excitable children who were sending me round the bend. My partner still didn’t show so we went to the last charity shop of the street and then walked back to the pub went in ordered drinks and a meal before my partner finally arrived. I was so relieved to see him that I almost cried but kept it in and handed over our daughter and left the pub.

I had no choice I needed to breath and hold back the screams and the tears that had been welling up in me all morning. It worked a few minutes outside away and I started to cool off and return to as normal as I can be. I then went to get some tobacco and had a rollie that took twice as long as usual to smoke before I went back in. Bless they were all there getting on being good and not acting like the spawn of the devil for Daddy although they still were not as good as the normally are. My partner gave me a kiss and a knowing look and then my burger arrived. That helped, food always helps. My children of course ate all my chips but I only really wanted “FLESH!” anyway. It done the trick and I could cope with our little nightmares.

The rest of the day kinda went past as they normally do but I was very physically and emotionally worn out from this horrid trip this morning. Thank goodness for an early night and a good book.

xXx

Wednesday  12th March

Was up early and it was just my son and me awake and it was so nice to have the house to ourselves while everybody else was still asleep. We had to get up and dressed and get out as it was my son’s full day at playgroup. So yes I also had to make the dreaded pack lunch that I forgot to make the night before, arrgghhh. Despite my son being on a go slow we made it there on time and he was quite happy to go in and start demanding attention from the other children to play what he wanted to play and didn’t even look back at me, bless him. Job done. I then went to the local shop and am sure I posted something to someone as a wish and a couple of pen pal letters before I had to get whatever thing I was meant to get. Came back to find my partner and daughter waiting for me and instead of rushing straight out as I needed to collect my medication I wanted to enjoy them while I had them there. My partner wanted to go fishing as it’s nearly the end of the season and so off he went leaving me and my daughter. It was lovely just us girls and nice to focus just on her. We played and ate and did what a mother and daughter should then My partner came back  so I could go to the doctors.

It was good to get out on my bike again even though I wasn’t really feeling it after all I have been off my full meds now for several day so am struggling more than normal and as I had been up all morning was about ready for a nap but no I was biking to get my much needed meds and fresh air is supposed to help. It was pleasant I didn’t need a coat and the scenery was nice until I got to the outskirts of our village and then sore a dead deer at so close a range I could see the blood dripping from it’s mouth. I had to stop…I needed to take it in. Yes I know sounds mad but I am, lol. It was the closest I have ever been to a deer for one so I wanted to actually see and I wanted to say a little prayer. I did. It was awesome and sad but it also reminded me that that’s how like goes sometimes. It’s not fair but that it’s just the way it is. One day your prancing around a field full of life, ( like the deer I sore the last time I was biking to the doctors) the next, you get hit by a car and die. I know it’s a shame that is why I had to stop.

Don’t worry my day get’s worse not just the deer’s. After biking all the way to Ludham I realised that I couldn’t get in to get my desperately needed medication because the stupid surgery was shut on a Wednesday afternoon, arse! (I didn’t know, should have but didn’t.) So I was more than a little annoyed at myself to say the least but what could I do except bike back again. Not happy infact my blood was boiling so much I had to stop and sit down on a bench have a rollie and read some of my book to calm myself down. I then noticed that there was a book rack in a butchers shop and thought it rather odd and so now that I was not only distracted by what I had seen but curious I had to go and investigate.

This meant that I had to be brave on a day when things were not going to well but I mustered up the whatever you call it and went into the shop and asked the butcher…” why do you have books in your shop?” Bless him he didn’t give me the short version funny how no one in these little villages know the short version of anything. It was a lovely story about his wife and being as forgetful as me and how a mistake turned into something wonderful like selling books in your husbands butchers shop to help make money for local charities. At present they are giving the money to our closed on Wednesday’s surgery as they need some new equipment. So it was worth being brave for. Not only that but I got two new books. I brought The Hobbit although I have read it I do not own it so thought why not it’s not a lot of money and it’s going to a good cause. Plus it meant something good had come out of my so far pointless trip. Then I turned the bookcase round and what did I see but Gold, well as close as. It was a Terry Pratchett book and it just so happened to be one that I haven’t read and now I own. Well chuffed that made up for the biking the dead deer and the surgery being closed!

xXx